sweet summertime.

surprising lunch C: whew. i'm happy.

this summer is turning out to
be much better than expected.

fiftynine.

happy birthday old mann C:

too far.

i think i'm becoming a

touch obsessed with

taking pictures.

another good night watching

movies with mama by the fire.

without this rational yet haywire element, she wouldn't be learning, or growing, or finding herself. that's all she is trying to do. is to find herself.
that's the beauty of this journey.

white lake.

mom and i have

just spent the past

two and a half hours

watching old white lake movies.

never really knew dad was a

good rockette C:

(finally convinced her to

go the whole time this year)

--kat, you have no idea

how much this makes

us miss you.

..

so i'll check the
weather wherever you are.
cause i wanna know if you
can see the stars tonight.

mother's day.

i gots me a good mama and i have come to realize that i am my mother's child. even if some days i don't want to admit it C: don't think i could be anymore blessed. seriously, you can't top it. ahah.

the one of many things that
has come from mom, that i have
never been able to forget:

'be quick to listen and slow to talk
to love everyone the way that Christ loves you,
to make a difference in the world and to realize
that even the little things you do, God can take
them and turn them into something greater than
you could ever imagine.'

job 8:7

why do emotions fluctuate so easily? and why do certain things make us happy and other things make us upset? the things from our past. the things that haven't seemed to work out. i don't know i just think that sometimes i focus on things that are uncertain and beyond my control most of the time. not things that i know to be true. example--graduation. honestly if i think about it, besides going to class and getting my work done the whole concept of it is something beyond my control. the fact that i have all MY ideas and goals planned out. and it hasn't happened yet but what if what i want doesn't happen. what if something comes along and changes my plans. i think i need to become more "adaptable". if that makes any sense. i need to have a plan but i think i need to be willing and able to work around it if those plans change.

its harder than it sounds.


"your beginnings will
seem humble, so prosperous
will your future be."

golf and dad.

dad's obsession with golf is starting to get a touch out of control. the masters have been on all of our tv's in the house for the past week now. however, mom and i have gotten interested in seeing the attractive men play the gameee. ahaha.

goooo phil!!! C:

come to my rescue.

ok so today i saw a woman walking at bur-mil with her little girl. she was carrying her little sippy cup and the little girl was smiling and running, then turning around to see if her mom was watching her. ok see i'm all about this "education" thing. i want to know that i would be able to provide for myself and have the opportunity to get a good job, BUT, i honestly would love to have what that woman had once i get older. a family of my own. the time to just take the morning off and go to the park with my kids and watch them play. that would be ultimate happiness right there.

failure is not final.

today has been one of the better days that i've had in a while. like a day that i would honestly be ok with living over and over again for a while. got to get up and dress up for church. then come home and cookout with the family, sit outside and tell funny stories and laugh pretty hard. now when i say funny stories i mean my mom and aunt telling the things that davis and i used to do when we were younger that were dumb and ridiculous at the time but now are just so dumb that they are funny. example, davis cutting a wire plugged into the wall with some sort of limb trimmers or how they had to call the doctor one day because the dog had bitten him in a pretty sensitive area. ha have i mentioned how much i love that kid? then all of us drive around and look at flowers on the graves (not really sure why we do it, but we always have) and then come back home and take a nap outside with dad while the sun goes down.

i haven't really written about anything with "substance" in a while. ha. ok so this morning, pastor was talking about how the empty tomb was a chance for a new beginning.for a second chance. how not only does easter mean grace but it also means forgiveness. two phrases that really stuck with me after the service, "don't try God, trust him" and "God can take a mess and make a message" it was just something that i do realize on a regular basis, but to hear it today, it just seemed to have a different meaning. somehow felt a little bit more personal. i realize that not only have i made some mistakes in the past, but that i will continue to make them. i know that. its just nice to know that i have someone that knows my heart and is willing to wipe away the things that i don't want to be there. today has just been a kind of "relief" in some ways. i thought for a while there that this must have been what i would have called the long haul. but every once in a while, a good day comes along. and more often than not those good days are the ones that i spend with my family.

happy easterC: