bridge.

i don't know what it is about bur-mil at the very beginning of fall, but there is this smell. and it almost makes my tongue burn when i run. its like a combination of water and honeysuckle. and there are tons of leaves that have already fallen on the greenway between the wildlife center and owls roost. tomorrow i need go back in the afternoon to take a picture because today it was absolutely gorgeous. so far this monday has been somewhat hectic and i feel like i've been in the car more than class. which probably isn't a good sign but my to-do lists now has a time frame. it used to be over the week but now my lists have to be done within the day, and this adds a little more pressure. its funny because last year around this time, i was just waiting for everything to kinda just fly by and today i caught myself just wishing for it to be friday. but if i really was being honest, i don't want it to be friday because there are three days in between now and then and something good could happen that i'm just not aware of. i need to just slow down because the last 90 mph days have all been a literal blur. i know that after this year, whether i like it or not, i am going to be a true adult and i'm going to have to have a true job and pay very real bills. ha so for right now, eventhough i so want to be out of school and not have to write another five page paper, i still would rather do that right now than become an adult. not a "21 year old"-- a legitimate adult. and it just hit me that you can't really go back in time on those things.